the day i met you was great till the day you left me.
everything you did was different and worth every second,
you the reasons why i live the way i do! following you and your motto is one of my treasures
you were my brother at heart and my best friend. always kind and never selfish. you thought me how to live with out regerts and how to live my life the way i want to and dont stop. you are the wishing star i look at in the night the one that shines real bright. your the angel that looks out for me. missing you would be an understatemant one without an explanation. no one can ever fill your shoes. your love. your beinging. you never complained and never critized. you were a modle to me and a great person many times i have told you that i loved you. and i ment it my favourite memorie would have to be the sleepovers and the talks and the reading stories to you before bed no matter how late it was the two books gren eggs and ham and cat in the hat would have to be read. you laugh and call thing one me and thing two you and ryan would be the cat in the hat. the thing that kept you laughing was hearing storys bout my day making fun of me as i went along. if it ever was a bout a guy you and ryan would give me this look and say hey hey this dude will have to pass through us first before you ever call him a friend! you were manny reasons why i laughed and had good times. you made me the prettiest necklaces and a pin that said my name on it with baby ducks. you were an amazing kid and a pleasure to be around. everyday of my life i would always feel safe to know that my baby bro is looking at me and that is the reason why i will smile and my heart will stop hurting for the lost of you. kris thanks for letting me in your world and getting to know you and letting me love you <3 <3

i dont know how you got control or how you make my heart skip but you do
why you do is impossible to explain and harder to describe. when im down i know i can turn to you and you make it all better
age doesnt matter and place is just a thing on the map but where my heart sets for you ... closer then you can imagine
your my everyhting and anything compare to yo u is pointless
i dont care bout the flaws and the history
the bumps and the rocks
i just care bout you having me in your arms <3

i dont run your lyfe
its not up to me
but please dont let that baby suffur because you and the mom lost it
she never asked for anything
she never asked to be here
she was givin to you with a gift to make you smile
dont leave her in the dark
she cant say no
she needs you
please dont stop fighting
she misses her daddy and she wants you bak
who ealse will keep her safe and ok
her mom is not that strong
she needs her daddys arms
she needs your strength
please never give up on her
shes yours and you helped make her
shes everything you r
she needs to smile and not to cry
she needs her daddy not a poser
wht kind of daddy is going to leave his princess
with a loser ?
i know shyt happens but she is still her and needs you <3

your in my heart without an end YOUR MY SISTER MY LIFE AND MY BEST FRIEND <3
The only one that knowssss the way I think when im not thinking at all
The only one who cares for me when I forget too
The one that tells me im pretty when I feel ugly
The one that shows my feelings when I don`t know how too
The one that keeps me  sobur  when I get drunk
The one that’s keeps me straight when I go in curves
The one who tell the others to stop laughing when im hurting
The one that puts the band aid on my cut cause it hurts when I do it
The one who stays up late at night listing to my problems when I need help
The one who lets me make the plains when they r borad
<3 thats a true best friends and have sooo many of themmm <3

i miss my baiifriend remeber he the one with the ears high high and the belly big big ?
hear one day the man comes to me and hes like i need one bra but me and he get different size because he one da suh <3 lol

i dont have time for you
your lies
your disrespect
your disrere to make me mirsesble
im more happy when im not with you
it hurts to bad when im next to you
you never look at wht you have you just have it
and thats not ok for me
i thought you where different but your not
your look so sweet and nice but your a monster on your own time
you hurt me in so many ways that i cant explain but its all true
and you never really cared for anything i had to do or say
you love flunting me to your friends but then i relized i was just
a toy for you and nothing i did really mattered for you and i was just
a accserorie in your world when i wanted to be something ealse
but then i relized i never really got anything i really wanted out of that reletion ship anyways

you sit there like an angel from up above
your smile is like the stars and your eyes are like diamonds
your skin is so soft like the clouds and your laugh is one of a kind
when you look at me my heart melts inside
everything about you was magical and i didn`t know much the one thing i did know that was when i held you i found my new love
when you smile i smile
when you cry i cry
when you laugh i laugh
its like we were ment to be
but your in a better place now even tho i rather you be here with me
your love will always be with me
and your sprit will always be kept alive
one day i ll see you again and when that day comes my love will be renewed again
until that one day i wil never forget you
and you will grow with me untill time
but you are my lil angel and forever yor wings will fly <3

why is it that you make me feel so down to earth you sit there listing even tho its the most boringest shit you ever heard .. but your still there
the way you help me and make me feel better
is like you were always there and i never noticed but now i did and i love how were friends and i can count on you to come through.
your there when i need you anytime anyday ..... i just hope we stay this way friends. sometimes you give me one answer replys but i still get it and feel better to know that someone is tryin to help me with my probs and being older you went through half of this alreadyyy
the drama
the loss of friends
the probs with the parents .....
everything you tell me makes me feel better and im happy your back in my life ... and i hope you stay in it with out any wired standings

tears , shame , blur , mad , sad , upset !
the way i look was my choice and i didn`t do a good job of it.
the tears that come to my eyes when i see myself .
the hurt i feel when ppl lye and tell me im pretty.
why im i so wide open to my flaws, but so blind to wht others see ?
mom im sorry im not the girl you pictured !
the prom queen type / prettiest girl on campus ! sorry thats not me !
fitting that shoe would be a wish ! but its not going to happin. doesn`t matter how many stars and candles i wish on !
i hate looking in the mirrors and seeing wht ppl think is pretty !
looking in the mirrors are like a bad dream but i cant wake up cause its not a dream its my life!
yelling at the mirror for the lies it shows me ? lies are true i guess that wht it means by the truth hurts !
i wish i was at least pretty .... and not the ugly shit i see everyday
the pills the blending the powder i wish i could stop !
i hid behind the mask i draw on everyday ... the life i created just with a brush!
the smile i draw on with my lip gloss
the eyes that cry i draw on with my liner and mascara
the red cheecks the glow when i smile is created by the thing i use sometimes i think its real and the smile and the eyes and the mask is real !
but when it comes with water i see my true self and i cry !
only to hope ne day it will stop and i can see what people see in me.
friends and family im sorry for the fake shit ive been pulling for almost 2 years now !
one day my mask will die and everyone can see the real mee ..... </3

ok everyone has friends that they watch out for there close friends and what not. but my friend preeti well she needs to get her act out!
she is wonderful , hot , and amazing. but the guys she dates are the reasons we fight ?
for one thing they never respect her !
they always cheat on her!
and its not like she doesn`t know they ever did these tings before !
i mean she knows before she dates them that they chated on other girls played around , slept with others but yet she stilll goes for them ?
and when i say someting and im just being a friend ! she comes out and starts shit with me cause im telling her wht to do ! this is like the thrid time this has happend and she never gets it. i mean she gets better faster but stilll

ok  this goes to my girl that might be losing both her parents but baby i want you to know you will never lose me <3

parents why do you fight in the middle of the night when all is asleep
parents why do you make us cry when we wanna laugh
and then you go and tell us that your going away for a lil while
parents its not going to happin
a lil while is like a life time sentence with out you </3
when mommy and daddy fight they say there mad and upset
and it will only be for a lil while ....
but then daddy is leaving out our front door ?
whts going on ?
some one help me ...
im crying inside and out but yet you still yell and shout !
don`t i matter anymore
you both leave me lying helplessly on the floor ?
i didn`t ask to come into this world !
people say im a blessing "a kid " from up above !
but why do i feel like a person and going away from myself ?
it hurts and pains
but its a love game ?
it works out and it doesn`t
what ever the reason daddy left i hope its not cause of me ?
parents thats wht a kids thought i when they see there parents leave and there not stuiped !
they know there not coming back !
there world goes from roeses and lillys to skulls and death ?
please parents take a stand be there for your child and not another hand !
we need you know then ever lean on each other and not by yourself !
your kids wanna help there apart of your life. and you can`t give it up
they want a daddy and mommy every day they wake up !
if your having prob. please work it out !
don`t let a child suffur from your mistake and misjudge ......
they wont be the same when you come back !
hold them and never let go cause if you do theres no point in living anymore and everyone looses whts there made of
no hope no fait no nothing to belive in
help your child today !
your child is the key to your reletionship <3
and if you can`t  help your child atleast don`t blame them or take it out on them just let them know your there and you will never leave them <3

love..... does anyone actually know what the word means? is it a feeling , or a thought , or even an object. i don`t know . all i know is that at one point in life you are going to expercience it and learn that it can be good and bad. love is unperdictable. it comes and goes like the autom wind. it comes in its very own sealed package. sometimes it is delviered and sometimes it gets lost and you have to find it . love is the new black everyone wants it . but sometimes they just don`t get it but they don`t stop looking for it. love is a big word sometimes people find what it means and sometimes they don`t. its like playing cards you never know whats going to happen. one day you might just win the jackpot and some days you might feel like the rain cold and tired and gray . but love is the closest thing we have to magic. and i`m not talking bout the pull a rabbit pout of the hat magic. im talking bout the magic you get when you one your first basket ball game and your standing there holding the gold medal. love works in different ways to different people. there is love at first sight and then there is love in a couple of years. when people say i love you do they mean it or do they just say it to make you feel good? at times love is like people it comes in different colours different cultures and different time zones. love is not only a four letter word it is the way of life. you have to understnd that love is like life it has good outcomes and then bad outcomes. LOVE  should be under lock and key cause when you do feel it you feel great and wonderful but whe you feel it and it doesn`t work you feel like shit ! but no matter what feeling love is the way people live everyday. you feel love when your with your parents yo ur friends and family your boyfriend your girl friend its all love. love moves faster then a train. but love is different when you feel it and when you get it. but always be careful cause one day you will fall in love and when you do its going to be a brand new life with manny meanings that you never knew before. its going to re born you into something you never thoguht you could be,
before. and before you say i do make sure you know you do before you mis lead your life into something thats hard to get out of .

omg ........................ today while walking down on the beach i was him..........standing there .............i thought i was going to cry .......or die
i saw his face as he turned around. my god his still beautiful. he looks at me his eyes meet mine. and slowly walks over to me doesn t know wht to say. and im glad cause i don t know wht to say i just want him to leave .......but he doesn t. he puts his hand on my shoulder and asks how im doing kid. thinking of him is the danger sign i see i can t ever be with him again even when sometimes i want to ...............for wht he did there is no excuse! ur boyfriends they cheat on you they lie to you they even treat you like crap. but wht he did is farr more wrost then that and having to find out on the day of ur annerviry is crazy. ryan i hate you for wht u did i still cant belive it to this day and to see you standing on the beach asking me how i ve been. i wish i could call the police. how can u do me that. they i treated you the way i loved you i didn t think i did anything wrong............but i gusse i wasn t enough for you ..............sleeping with my bestfriend.........thats low even for you i gave you a sconde look when i first met you. i was the first one u talked to. but at the end we dated for a year and we lost each other in away i didn t know i could lose a person. my heart stops when i think of you. my body shivers when i thnk of you........seeing you behnd that stand i court was crazy . i cried for so long thinking this wasn t ture. you distured my grade 8 year. you letme to belive that i could love you and care for you but all you were was a fake. the kisses the hugs the choclates . i should have known that u were up to something. but insted it was my friends that had to pick me up off the floor when i fanited that morning. u just sat there and watched. and it was my friends that had to tell me wht u were doing behind my back . SLEEPING WITH OTHER GIRLS ...........HAVING SEX WITH THEM ..............i ll tell you this im glad im not urs anymore cause for wht i herd i don t deserve to be. and seeing you this morning broke my heart. for you to come up to me and say HOW YOU DOIND KID. i wish i could have boxed you in the face!!!!!!! but all i did was say nothing and walked away looking back i saw her ......his new girl friend blonde and hot in the suns rays. as i started at her i could he was the same and that little honest heart of hers was going to be broken. so i thought i had to do something. so i watched her go to the fruit bar and i followed her as i reached there i told her my nmes miley........she said hi and the cutest tone she has and i asked her if she was dating that guy on the beach she said YES SHE IS  ..............i sat her done and asked her where did she meet him. she told me the store. and i told her that if i was her i would dump him ...........i said that i don t think a nice girl like you should get ur heart broken like me . after she got the clue and she said that she was allawys thinking to . i told her don t wait or something bad is going to happend to you ......he asked me whts going to happend and i said you don t want to wait and find out belive me ...............and i left her like that . as i was walking home i was her and she saw me she ran up to me and said i did it i did it  I BROKE UP WITH HIM .......AND I FEEL LIKE THE WORLD IS OFF MY SHOULDERS we stood there laughing and i made a new friend and ryan is left without a friend ...........FOR NOW.......I GUSSE. and to tell you the turth im glad i told her to break up with him because guys like that don t desvere girls like us.....................

hey girls and dudes

if ur a girl out there u know how fustrating it is t be with a guy..........OR TO GET ONE!  everyone has been there so what is it that makes guys click? is it the hair or .........ect. well i have nooo clue. because girls its like this u ever alk down ur high school hallways and then from no where this so totaly cutie come out of no where and its like those movie seanes when the girl meets the guy for the first time. and then she see the perfect light around him and his hair is perfect. ya i ve been there.  but then us girls stress out because we don t no wht to were or how to do are make up or how to do are hair. and then are girls are like SMACK  in the face like CHICA GET A HOLD OF UR SELF  ...............YOU LOOK PERFECT!  lol  it works some time but it doesn t hurt to look ok for him to notice u. but al u CHICAS OUT THERE PLEASE DON T LOSE YOUR SELF .............BE TURE TO UR HEART AND BE TURE TO UR SELF ............. we have to many fakes in this world allready.  hope u get him sexy laadyssss .......................kiss kiss